i love to hate parenthood

how about a completely random materialistic, utterly non-important post...

i'd like to take some time to discuss parenthood, the tv show.

it infuriates me, breaks my heart, & draws me in at the very same time. i have watched it from the beginning. and every single tuesday night, i wonder why on earth i force myself to keep watching. seriously, i cry at every single episode. season 4 has been brutal.

christina has cancer. and i love her. 

max is being max.

julia is struggling with her defiant child.

crosby is probably my favorite.

amber loves ryan, but she just can't do it.

drew's girlfriend had an abortion even though he wanted her to keep the baby.

sara is horrible. horrible. i will say it again, horrible.

and they have all sucked me in & i cannot get out.

i don't know if i've mentioned this before, but jarrett is a real stand-up guy. if i am upset watching a show or movie and get a little overly sensitive and start crying, he comforts me. comes and sits with me, rubs my back. lets me cry and snot all of his shirt. he is pretty sweet like that.

well, my friends, those days are gone. at least when it comes to tears as a result of parenthood. season 4 is killing me. and i'm not talking a couple of tears rolling down my cheek. i'm talking full on sobbing. jarrett sees this happening & he says - WHY DO YOU WATCH THIS?! YOU CANNOT BE ENJOYING THIS! true story, friends. so i go to bed each tuesday with a headache & puffy eyes. 

but just like an abusive relationship, i keep coming back for more. i don't want to stop watching. i don't want to miss anything. what if something super terrific happens & i miss it. what if for 1 episode everything goes great for those wacky Bravermans & i miss it.

i feel like i am invested in this show. i have spent so many tuesday nights already watching. i can't stop now.

ok. there i feel better.